WRITTEN IN CAPITALS BECAUSE I THOUGHT, HEY, THIS COULD BE COOL, WRITING IN CAPITALS :)

I MAY AS WELL WRITE IN CAPITALS.

I GOT IN THE SAME BUS AS HIM TODAY. 

YOU'RE PROBABLY THINKING WHO. BASICALLY, JUST THIS GUY I HAVE A CRUSH ON.

HAHAHAHA 

I ALSO TOLD HEADLAM TO SHUT UP. I WAS IN THE BUS STOP AND HE SOMES. I AM TALKING TO PEOPLE AND THEY ARE TALKING TO ME BACK. HE COMES, STANDS AROUND US, THEN, FOR NO REASON, WITHOUT BEING PROVOKED HE TELLS THE PERSON I AM TALKING TO TO SHUT UP. TWICE. THEN I TURN TO HIM AND I SAY, I ACTUALLY SAID THE WORDS, LOUD AND CLEARLY, 'GO AWAY!' THEN HE IS ALL LIKE, NO. THEN I AM LIKE, SHUT UP THEN AND I AM LIKE, YOU DO NOT GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE WHO YOU HARDLY KNOW TO SHUT UP. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM. HE REPLIED THAT HE HAS AUTHORITY FROM THE MAN UPSTAIRS AND I GOT A BIT ANGRY, BECAUSE IT I STARTED TO SEE WHAT PEOPLE SAY ABOUT HIM. HE THINGS HE IS BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE SUPERIOR AND THAT HE CAN SAY ANHYTHING. I GET IF HE IS JUST THE PERSON WHO SAYS WRONG THINGS, BUT HEADLAM SEEKS OUT ANGER AND CONFLICT BY PROVOKING PEOPLE. THE OTHER DAY, HE WENT UP TO A GIRL HE HARDLY KNOWS, ASKED HOW HER SEX LIFE IS. THERE IS THIS GIRL HE CALLS FAT AND UGLY EVERY TIME HE SEES HER. HE'S REALLY GOOD AT THIS PUSHING AWAY THING. I THINK, WHY AM I STILL FRIENDS WITH HIM IF HE IS SO ADAMANT TO PUSH EVERYTHING AWAY - IF I AM MERELY INFERIOR COMPARED TO HIS SUPERIORITY. IN FRIENDSHIP, IT SHOULD NOT BE LIKE, LISTEN TO ME BECAUSE I AM SUPERIOR AND ALL YOU BELIEVE IN IS CRAP BECAUSE YOU I KNOW BETTER THAN ANYONE BECAUSE I AM A 'PROPHET OF GOD.

I SAT IN BIOLOGY, NEXT TO TWO FRIENDS WHO DO NOT TALK ANYMORE.  THEY DO NOT EVEN SAY HI. ONE COMES, AND SHE STARTS TALKING AND THE OTHER PUTS IN THEIR HEADPHONES AND PRETENDS THAT THE IS NOT THERE. VICTORIA TALKS - SHE IS TELLING HER SOMETHING BUT SHE JUST IGNORES AND ACTS AS IF SHE DID NOT SAY HER NAME. IT IS SAD - FRIENDSHIP DOES NOT CONNECT THEM. THEY ACT AS IF THEY ARE MERELY STRANGERS. THE SAD THING IS THAT THE ONLY RECOGNITION OF A BOND IS FACEBOOK. 

FACEBOOK IS SO GREAT WHEN IT COMES TO HOARDING GHOSTS. IN MY FAVOURITE SONG, SHAKE IT OUT, THE FIRST LINE IS 'REGRETS COLLECT LIKE OLD FRIENDS.' I LOVE THAT LINE - I THINK LIKE, REGRETS ARE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT YOU LET SLIP AND IT BATTERS AT YOU. IS THAT WHAT OLD FRIENDS ARE LIKE? FRIENDSHIP THAT COULD HAVE BEEN IF SOMEONE TRIED HARDER AND IF BOTH PARTIES NEGOTIATED? I THOUGHT, WOW, REGRETS? OR PERHAPS GUILT, BECAUSE THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE I TOLD ON THE 23/05/14 WHEN I LEFT THAT I WOULD KEEP IN TOUCH AND YET, ALL THAT REMAINS ARE FAINT MEMORIES. IS THE REGRET THAT A PERSON NEVER TRIED OR IS IT GUILT, THAT I DID NOT WANT TO, BUT YET I PROMISED?

MY MUM IS GOING NIGERIA TOMORROW AND I WILL MISS HER, EVEN THOUGH IT WILL BE A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOT MORE QUIETER WITHOUT HER. I LOVE HER, SHE'S MY MUM.

AH WELL. IT WILL BE OKAY.

A MONTH IS LONG THOUGH.