Without Agata

I have started to realise just how prominent loneliness is in the mines and other lives. I ahev started to realsie that not everyone is blessed with an amazing best friend who knows you well and who you can trust, the way I am. I realised that when Agata left. People are lonely. A lot of the people in my college come from tehr countries and they are all here by theirselves and they keep themselves to themselves. t is not like in highschool (for me anyway) where everyone knows eachother and where everyone talks and hugs eachother. No, it is where you are sit alone and avoid people who come near. Where no one knows who you are, really; people do not care - or seem not to; they are not outwardy curious. It is  lot harder to get to know people from college. They all ahve guarded hearts that are waiting to be infiltrated, but are too tough to allo anyone to do so.

It's sad.

I was so used to being wth Agata that i did not realise. When she left I was drawn out of my comfort zone - who could I be friends with had now become a priortiy. I did try. I really did. I refused to isolate myself. I started talking a lot more to Evelin, a girl in lots of my classes and she was really nice. Different, I guess. She allowed people to come close. However, other people just live in their shelter.