Dawn of a new ... night, I guess

I am so excited for tomorrow :) I am seeing an old friend, Umi, and we are going to the Natural History Museum and the Science Museum and I literally cannot wait. I have never been Natural history Museum before and like I cannot wait to see her. We are literally going to talk so much. I will be so angry if she does not turn up - but I think she will.
But literally, I told my mum and dad, yeah, by the way, I am going Natural History Museum with a friend and celebrating exams finishing and they were like, okay, how much do you want, and I was like, oh wow, being 17 is different from 16 somehow, because they would not have let me before. I am so happy. They are starting to see me like a young adult as opposed to a kid - in some ways and like yaaaay :) Okay, this is a milestone for me!

I finished my exams today. S1 was beautiful although so many people were like, what the flip was that?  This morning, I felt like crap. I was yawning so much and felt so sleepy even though I had coffee. I felt sick. I had a cheese and pickle sandwich, but I threw half of it away. I felt bad because like people in Africa suffering and not able to have food, but literally, if I finished it, I would have thrown up. My back and neck and head were aching. They have been for a couple days. I took a sort of morning walk and then went to my exam and thought, let this thing come and hit me as I am as ready as I will ever be.

Only it did not. The exam got cancelled. Joking. That was John's joke or excuse for why it was ten past nine and we were still waiting outside. They lost the papers temporarily, okay. Hahahaha, how silly. After my exam my headache returned and all the pain did but Headlam just kept talking and I was like, oh gosh, I need silence, so I got of at Tyburn lane and went into college. I was only going to see the careers advisor but then that took an hour. I bumped into my psychology teacher who asked if I would be coming to his lesson and well I could not say no because I was there anyway. So I went.

Guess how many people showed up to the lesson? Two. When I say two, I mean two including me and the teacher. It was not awkward, as you would think it would be. A teacher in a class with just one student. No, Mike kept talking. We went through the A2 specification and he was as usual adding in anecdotes and being really like intelligent and knowledgeable about like everything. I was in awe.

Yesterday I saw Goncalo - or Gonkie - on the bus. I like seeing him. I sometimes rest my head on his shoulder on the bus and he is so sort of cuddly. I miss him a lot. The rest of the world now is boring. Though it is sad as he lack motivation for most things. He could be so much more if he tried. He said he was once spiked with ecstasy and when he realised he got all worried because he heard someone had died by being dehydrated whilst on ecstatcy. So he went to his mum's friends house - where he was staying - and was drinking lots of water. He complained about me walking him home, but I knew he wanted me there. :P <3 He loves me, really.

But trying in itself is exhausting and makes you miss out in some of what life has to offer, I guess.


Oh. I won a Harrow College Student Award. :) I got the email saying so and it really made me feel happy, like, wow, I get an award, like, I must have been nominated, but that means that a teacher would have thought that I am putting effort in and hard working and  whilst I did not really think I would get a reward other than good grades, getting an award is pretty cool.


Good night.