Content

Yeah, life is good. :)

I am content at the moment.

I feel confident and empowered.

And strong.

Uncertain and a bit confused.

I have the whole of my life stretched out in front of me

but at the moment, I feel as if I want to stick with my decision.

When it comes to making more decisions

I will try and be brave and take risks if needed.


I look in the mirror and smile at myself.

I actually think, I look nice today.

Is this acceptance?

Normally, I think, I am so fat.

I look ugly in this.



I feel lucky.

I have parents who love me.

I have a comfortable life.

I have amazing siblings.

I have A LOT of support.

From family, friends and teachers.

I am proud of myself. How far I have come.


I am skilled.

I can learn about stuff.

I can focus on a task

I can talk to people confidently

well, that is debatable.

I am hard working and motivated

I am yet to understand what motivates me



I feel so real.

I love myself


I have flaws too.

I think I am perhaps too much of a pushover

and too nice for my own good.

I think - I know, sometimes I let people walk all over me.

I am taking smallish steps.

But steps nonetheless.



Victoria N asked me to help her prepare for interview.

I really did not feel up for it.

So I just sort of flaked out.

And letting her down

the feeling of letting someone down

not having to always be responsible was good.

I didn't even feel much guilt.

Baby steps. :)



I would like to continue

to feel

every bit of pain and hurt and stress

and hurt and anger

as well as friendship, love, sympathy,

happiness and joy with intensity

because I have come to realize

that feeling emotions

feeling

is a gift.

It means I am not robot and numb

reminds me that I am only human.