Parent's evening

I had a good day.

It is weird. I walked around feeling empowered.

Let's start from yesterday. I threw out most of my maths things - believe me, that helped. I felt like I was in control of the situation. I could recycle the paper or throw it in the bin - that was my decision. I could do something wreckless - throw out stuff before an exam - or just let things pile up on my shelf.

Today, I felt good. Woke up to my mum shouting at six, because that is what she does. I drank some coffee and sorted out my maths stuff. Then I left to College. It was raining and windy but I walked regardless. I went to meet up with Lamis an old friend for high school and together we walked in the rain. She had an umbrella, but I was not too keen to go under it I hate umbrellas, okay?

I met Amelia and Agata at the bus stops and broke heart breaking news to them. This was the last time that we would meet in the mornings, until potentially next year. Agata literally had stones in her bag, because she found stones on the beach on Monday and could not resist bringing it for show and tell on the bus. :) She's a crazy one.

I had a good day. I got my Psychology mock back. I got 91 percent. My highest A yet. :) I felt a little less stressed about it.

Madvhi, Chen and Victoria all wanted to revise after college. I lied that I had a GP appointment. :) I got the bus with Mahamood. I really did miss him. I met Simrayn, his friend, who is so friendly. She was talking to me like she knew me when Mahamood introduced me to him. Well not like she knew me, but like she was did care who I was. Like, she wasn't one of those person who when you get introduced to, they are just sort of like, I do not care who you are.

I went Wembley Library and it was packed as hell. I bumped into a friend, and she was in a mess and worried that she had no idea where she is going with life and she thought she was a failure and was just in a bad state, so we kind of talked in the rain and she came Tesco with me and witnessed me buying broccoli, tomatoes and a pear.

I went to my brother's parents evening. I am glad I did. I really am. I first went to see my old form tutor and I was really sort of like nervous to approach. At first there was a kid and their parent in front of her, so I was just awkwardly looking down at my phone, pretending to text.

Then when they went, I was sort of like, hey and then she hugged me and we talked. Like it was my brothers parents evening but we were talking about me. I love her.  :) I really really missed her so much. It was weird, seeing her in person after so much time, but it felt sort of natural. I have been wanting to see her for so long that I was so happy. During year 11, she was there for me so much. In was literally in her class, lunch times, mornings, after school, break times. When she was not there, her things were. She would leave her laptop in her open bag and you would find bits and bobs on her desk. One time there were paints and she was like it was for throwing at her year 10's. On my birthday, my friend left me a note and I lost it and I was sat on her chair like two days after and there is my friend's note saying 'Dear Olugbemi' on her desk.

Like we were sat there like 15 minutes just talking and it made me happy that she was like still the same person and she was happy that I seemed happy and like I liked college.

I talked to my brother's maths teacher. Mrs Murungi. She is great. She pushes people to do better. if I did not do further maths GCSE with her as my teacher, I would be so scared about A level maths.

The building was the same. It felt natural walking through it. Like I belonged there. But I guess I have closer, a bit.

I realise it is good I left.

It was so funny because it was my brothers parents evening but much was asked about me first. :)