Some stuff

I was going to go to sleep. I was listening to music on YouTube and letting things take their course. (I.e. not changing songs and relying on autoplay.) I finally decided that it was time to get myself immersed in UCAS - it had to happen sooner or later. 

I am just starting to get real. Looking at Universities outside London and requirements. I haven't even touched student finance or scholarships yet...  I feel so underprepared. 

And so stressed. 

Like wow. It is summer. Well summer is fleeting away, anyhow. ]

Anyway, I was going to go sleep, then Emeli Sande - Read all about it III came on and damn, it is powerful and emotive! 

I thought I should add these. :) 

I can do this.

Day by day. 

I keep imposing myself with trying to bite on more than I can chew. 

Trying to do so much more than possible at one go. 

It just hinders productiveness. 

Right now, I am in the stage where I am thinking, crap, where has childhood gone?

It is sort of sad. 

The freedom and choices and expectations. 

Like, damn, I am a young adult.

I am being forced to decide what I want to do with life. 

And I don't know.

It feels like I am merely a bet and so many people have invested in me. 

I do not want to let anyone down. 

However, I am not going to live the life that people are trying to push me into. 

If I am going to University and paying all those bloody fees then they bloody well be for a course that I think I want to do. 

So yeah. 

Good night.