Jitters

Okay, so tomorrow is results day and the nerves are setting in.

It feels real now.

Before it was so surreal. Like, it may not even come to results day because it is so far away.

I was fine at first.

Till Amelia and Idil told me about exam rumors - both seemed to think that the exam results would be biased.

Idil said apparently examiners got confused and marked generously.

Amelia said apparently OCR fucked up badly.

Both worry me. I do not want an examiner who is subjective.

I want an examiner who will give me the marks I deserve, irrespective.

I do not want lost exam papers.

And for them to have to estimate what I got based on mocks.

I got over that a bit.

Then I looked at the grade boundaries. Another kick up the backside.

Grade boundaries are done systematically.

Only a certain percent get a certain grade.

Quality control, if you think about it.

So grade boundaries being low does not really matter. A certain percent will always still get A's and a certain percent will always still get U's.

My problem is that all the grade boundaries are like 5 marks apart. Imagine getting an A would be 50 and getting a C, 40 marks and a B, 45 marks.

I am worried Maths. A few marks will mean the difference between the A I sought after and the B, C and lower that I dread.