What happens after Psychology, is that if I do not pack my things into my bad quick enough, I end up the last person in the class.

We Evelin and I sometimes. When she is there as well, Mike does not start a conversation.

However, there are the days where she has to get to work and so it is just Mike and I, which was today.

Which lead to like a 5 minute conversation.

I was lucky it was 5 minutes.

I did a psychology mock.

It was an easy paper.

When Mike handed it back, he told me that he found it difficult to deduct marks.

I got 98 percent.

:)

I talked a bit to Lima today.

We were sat in the canteen after college just discussing life which was cool.

Zeinab

I have been talking a lot Zeinab recently.

She's great.

I find that despite sometimes there being distance,

when we talk, I can tell her pretty much anything.

The priest came to my mum and told her that she was cruel to leave her children by themselves.

I understand why she would say that. The looks that people gave me when my mum was gone said just as much.

Like how can she leave a 17 yr old with her disabled dad to cook, clean, look after children and do shopping?

I have to admit, that during her holiday, some days I thought, hmmm, does my mum even care that a lot of pressure is being put on me? Is it fair on me to have to be a mum for 5 children? To cook and clean and look after my siblings just because I am the oldest?

I do not think it was cruel for my mum to leave us. Yes, a lot of the burden fell on me.

And I do think that it was selfish of her to leave without actually considering how it would effect our education.

update

Here's is an update.

Periods suck.

On Thursday, I felt so ill and nauseated that I thought I might actually faint.

Yesterday I could not sleep. My legs hurt that much.

I was doing to go on a walk today I feel sort of meh.

During the night when I could not sleep, I calculated my cycle.

I am likely to be on my period on the 14th June.

The day I have my Psychology unit 4 exam and my Chemistry unit 4 exam.

So I may ask my GP if I can have a contraceptive pill.


Had to follow my mum for an appointment today.

My parents expected me to give them directions.

Needless to say that was a flop.

My mum ended up telling this random guy to get into the car and give them directions.

Luckily he was heading that way.

His name was Lee - my mum asked.

He was Jamaican - my mum guessed.

It turns out that my directions were alright.

My dad the wrong direction at Henly corner.

It we went the right way it would have only took 6 minutes.



I was in a snappy mood yesterday.

I went to the canteen and I did not want to talk.

I sat on a small table so that no one could join me.

I put on headphones.

Then Hamed came and joined me.

I really was so not bothered that I actually told him I am sat here so that I can be by myself. I do not really want to talk. I just want to listen to music and do some psychology work.

Imagine, he kept talking.

He would not shut up.



In Psychology, Mike said that I did not have to do the work that the class did.

I was so happy. Then he gave me a different work sheet and said he had me in mind when he printed them out.

He it would help because it is extra stuff but I already knew it but did not have the heart to tell him so because he kept asking me if the sheet was useful.

After that he ran out of work sheets and so I was finally permitted to actually go on with my own revision.

I did not bother asking him if I can stay at home.

That would offend him. He thinks he is helping me get my grade so anything I saw will sound like I am rejecting help.

It is a mean thing to say, but sometimes I am not too keen on catching up with Zeinab. 

Because it feels like when we talk, there is so much space between the last time we talked. 

I saw her Wednesday which was great. 

We got ice cream and walked around IKEA and talked. :) 

It is quite cool because when we do talk, like it does not feel as if I have not spoke to her in ages.