My mum came to me when I was revising and was like, "Linda, don't you go out to any parties?" And I was like, huh? What do you mean by that? Then she was like, "Why don't you get a social life?" I thought about that actually. It was a little funny getting from my mother whose always been averse to the idea of me having friends. If I told her I was going out with a friend she would call me like every hour or so and when I got back she would give me the ' do not do anything with boy's' speech. I told her 'I do have a social life,' and she laughed and called me a liar. It sucks to admit that she is right... at the moment, I don't have too much of a social life. Paula is always like to me, when can we revise on Saturdays and I am like, I cannot because I have people to see and I end up just studying. So yeah... That is life at the moment, I guess. I was supposed to meet up with this girl tomorrow and we were going to go get samosas because she has never had them before. Then she bailed out on me...

Pukka tea

Vanilla Chai tea 
So beautiful

TEDed

Here are some TEDed talks I watched that seemed really cool. They're like 5 minute videos talking about stuff. I thought today instead of watching Doctor who or Sherlock whilst I was eating, I would go on YouTube and watch short clips.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z-IR48Mb3W0 - This one is about depression. I like the use of cartoons in it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjbgZwgdY7Q - This one is about why females menstruate, which is actually quite interesting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v-t1Z5-oPtU - This one is about how stress effects the body and it's pretty interesting too. Stress is really interesting. I was watching this Ted Talk about this lady who did research and found that stress does not kill yo but thinking that stress is bad for you does. The video suggested that a persons emotions could influence physiological response.

I am not actually feeling too happy at the minute.

I do not know why I made a blog post just to state this.

I didn't want to admit that I was feeling unhappy.

But I felt a bit unhappy so not admitting it is like lying to myself.

So there world. :) Hahahaha good night.

I am not sure what is worst. 

Guilt or nerves. 

Both make me feel like crying and hiding away. 

And just never leaving the house. 

I just don't want to leave the house

and be around people. 

Or to talk to people. 

I wish I did not talk as much. 

That would solve a lot. 

Absences

Lima is back after a week of chicken pox.

I missed her a lot.

At first I was like, I am free. I can do so much.

I realized as the week wore on that being free was not all its cracked up to be.



She's great. I missed spending my Tuesday with her. I realized that it was either just sort of random short lived conversations with people, or loneliness without her. And I realized that in her absence and  I will make the point of telling her that.


Evelin too was ill last week.

I was deprived from my Psychology body.

I had no one to laugh at Mike with.

When we did group work, I did not have Evelin. :(

She was not there to hear Mike talk about his ex, which she would have loved.

I had no one to complain about the snails pace of the lesson.

I felt rather exposed.

I made sure to tell her just how much I missed her too. :)

It is weird, absence is sometimes a good thing. Makes you realize what is missing.