The other day a girl asked me, if I have ever liked a boy before.

I felt a bit sort of offended. Like she was not asking if I was a lesbian. 

She under the assumption that if I liked anything, I would like guys. 

She was asking me if I got crushes. If I actually noticed things such as how good looking a guy/ girl is. If I had a sexual orientation.

I do by the way. Just because I do not go like, 'Oh, he is so good looking' does not mean I do not like guys.

I just more find guys who treat a person right attractive.

You could have a very good looking guy who was inconsiderate - that is not appealing to me.

I'd rather decide whether a person is attractive ore not by getting to know them as a person. 

I was thinking about it today. 

I would have thought that having crushes and those awkward feelings of attraction is hardwired in humans. Unfortunately. 

The Cat

Today, on my walk back home, I saw a black and white cat.

I meowed at the cat and it meowed back and approached me. It started to walk around me - it's fur brushing my legs. 

I was worried that the cat would decide that I am its enemy and that it would abruptly scratch me or bite me, but upon stroking the cat, he/she walked around my legs again. 

I am starting to think that I have got cats wrong - yes, their eyes are usually evil looking, but that doesn't mean that cats are evil. 

First impressions are sometimes, spot on. However, sometimes, they are not. I will try bear that in mind.   

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Autumn warmth

Yesterday the weather was beautiful so I thought that I should not waste it.

So I went to Northala field and when I got to the top of the hill, I sat down and read. 

I read all day yesterday outside.

It was a good day. 

Really peaceful.

Today

I totally get that feeling of wanting to be alone then feeling lonely when you are alone.

That was today actually.

So at break I called my mum to say hello.

And she said she was happy I did not forget her.

And I almost started crying.

And for the whole day, I was thinking, I want to go home and hug my mum.

Empowered

Okay guys.

Today, I was feeling a bit stressed. Like OMG, I am already falling behind of studying and I felt like crap all day. Then I though, screw, it, I will not apply to Oxbrigde. Too much hassle. Then I thought, do I even know what I want to do?  Do I even want to go Uni? Then, I thought about it. It is my decision. I will make it wrong sometimes, just like there will always be casualties and just like I will always make mistakes.