The education system is really annoying.

I read an article saying the GCSE pass rates have decline. I do not understand the complaints when the grade boundaries are fixed so that only a certain proportion of people get a certain grade. If they want more people to get the grades then how about lowering grade boundaries?

It annoys me that some people are like, we have to make exams harder. People who say this obviously have not taken exams because it is not just exams. It is your whole future in 2 hours. It is pressure building up and a diminished social life and stress. Sure, some people thrive regarding exams. However, a lot of people crumble. There are people completely traumatized by education as a result of exams. People completely overwhelmed by all of life's problems as well as a grade that will determine a their choices.

Today

I got all my money back for my remarks. All £130. I feel like a shopping spree. Also, I feel a lot better off. My B is now an A. I have my papers back and my confidence (well most of it) has been restored. (I say this because leggit, one of my fears was failing academically by my own standards - this means getting B's or below. Getting a B to me is like getting a U for some people.)

I saw Agata in her boyfriend's car today and I was a tiny bit jealous. Not at the fact that Agata has a boyfriend but that he has a car. He is 19 and has a car and drives it. That is so cool. I want a car. I don't like the idea of driving, but like I want a car.

I am tutoring my sisters boyfriend biology. I told him that if he does not take me seriously, I will drop him like a hot potato. (And I mean it!)

I will be collecting my younger brothers GCSE results tomorrow.

The plan is, if it is good, I will call him and tell him.

If it is bad, I will tell nobody and hide it.

He thinks it will be bad as he started revising for his exams on the day and the grade boundaries are high. :(

If it is bad, but not awful, I will go with him to Harrow College and plead with them to give him a chance.

Yesterday, I made dream jars wit

All you can eat

Guys, I went Jimmy's today with my sisters and Anthony.

Mohammed was supposed to come but he felt ill - yet he is going in for work eater because he was like, I'll see you in my office later. So that is a bit iffy.

Long story short, I felt sick before eating so that feeling increased afterwards.

Lies get you nowhere. 

I may have told a lie which has sort of come back to haunt me. 

:) Great! 

Update

I was not able to find a job. Perhaps I didn't try hard enough? Maybe... maybe I did not even want a job?

Everything is a little bit busy at the moment which is great but sucks a little bit.

I am in Mencap on Mondays. It is really great helping the people with learning disabilities as it makes me sort of think about stuff I take for granted. I can feed myself and communicate in such a way that people will understand me. However, for some of the people I have met, it is an immense struggle to do these things.

Tuesdays and Wednesdays are my days off. Instead of making plans with friends, I feel so overwhelmed with having most of my week planned and I end up doing something spontaneous or going out with friends. However, I next week. we may be going Jimmys on Tuesday (my siblings, Anthony, Mohammed and I) and on Wednesday I will force myself to make plans with either Zeinab or Victoria and we will go somewhere green.

On Thursdays, I am in Wembley library volunteering. This is my third year and so the staff love me and we have built a really good rapport. However, I look forward to volunteering her least. After a year of stacking books in work, I have grown tired of doing so. Although, that is not to say that that is my only role. I also supervise other volunteers because I am apparently more experienced. Also, I get to talk. However, the problem is, in a shitty mood, there is so much pressure to smile and communicate and I cannot handle that well.

On Fridays, I volunteer at Sufra. I love that place so much. It is a home away from home. I help out looking after the children and they are so great. Also, I also talk to people and so that is good as well.

Satudays for the rest of this month are earmarked for Sufra, helping out. Sunday is church day.

You know what would be nice

You know what would be really nice?

If Joy made me breakfast.