I was watching this documentary about decision making.

I watched

Book reviews

I was doing my book reviews for the college's 6 book challenge. I have wrote 4 so far. And all of them somehow start with 'I really like this book because it was sad.' I never realized until I read over them. But yeah. I like books because they are sad apparently.

High Hopes

I actually quite like Kodaline High Hopes video. I have watched it like 5 days this past week.

Bonjour mes amis

Was a great day today.

I went to college to study chemistry with Victoria N.


I was trying to avoid eye contact and communication with the nice boss. I am good at embarrassing myself in front of her, so I have decided the limit my interactions with her. That does work. I

The book I borrowed. It is called All the Bright places. Spoiler. The first sentence is: Is today a good day to die? 

I saw Victoria A from high school today. I called her up as soon as I left college. And she was like, where are you and I was like, outside your house. I sometimes do that. Wait outside her house and see if she is in. If she is in, we go on walks around Harrow and talk about life. Recently, it has become increasingly about how stressful work is and how much we want things to work out the way we want it to. Though we talk about other things. Marriage and boys today. This was sparked by her thinking that Agata was joking about having a boyfriend. Then, she turned to me and was like, it is time for you to get one as well.

I went home and made mashed potatoes and sausages for my siblings.

My dad is a really cool guy. It is weird. Recently, I have been talking to him more and more.

Yesterday, was great. I finally walked up to the motor way where there was daffodils. I love that place a lot. I sat there for a while just thinking about life and breathing. Like, breathing has never felt so good before. I felt so alive.

The living room is a mess.

My dad keeps insisting that he will clean it. 

But he is doing ironing 

and I keep having ton tell my sisters off

for leaving their plates lying around on the table.

This morning, I held the laptop on ransom 

to make my sister take her plates down. 

My dad was like that is not neccesary, 

I will make her do it now.

And I was like, no, she has to learn now. 

I want her to do it now.

It worked. I promised to give her the laptop

and she is waiting now for me to give it to her. 

I sort of lied. 

I spent an hour trying to make my printer print.

It eventually worked when I asked google. 

Hey guys.

Or rather more, hey Agata.

I realised why my mum shouts on the phone when she calls Nigeria.

I called her today and I had to get progressively louder so that she could hear me.

So yeah, I called my mother in Nigeria.

It was

I read an article this morning talking about how the top jobs are still dominated by people who went to private schools and have gone to Oxbridge and it is absolutely disgraceful.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/education-35641061

I was reading another article about how apparently the youth in Brent are the most socially mobile wh

Waste of time

Today, if I stayed at home, I would have got so much work done.

Do you want to know what I did instead?

I listened to Mike talk for 2 hours.

It got to the stage where his voice began to irritate me.

He asked us to do a question and all he did was talk through it, telling us what we could have put.

And  was thinking, PLEASE SHUUSSSH!

Lessons are just a waste of time?

All we did today, was learn that sciences are falsifiable.

Here is the funny thing.

Before coming to college, I read the psychology text book for 10 minutes and I learnt that sciences are 1) falsifiable 2) reductionist and also that they 3) test hypothesis gather data. I my as well have went back to sleep after that 10 minutes and missed my lesson and still, I would have learnt more than if I was in class. 

I just ant to throw my phone away.

I caught up with Zeinab today.

I made her walk. But we compromised and I allowed her to buy chocolate.

It was fun.

Hotel Translyvannia 2

I haven't even watched the first movie.

I have not watched the first movie of How to train your dragon too.

I know. It is a scandal. :P

It was a good movie.

I take my little eight year old to movies of juniors sometimes.

Only because it costs £1.75.

It all started in May 2013. My mum was on her phone to a friend who mentioned that she took her son cinema.

And she was like, hmmmm, my daughter should go cinema too.

(It was blatant imitation.)

I think the first movie for juniors we watched was Lego Movie.

With Bob. :)

It was after the leavers assembly where everyone said good bye to each other.

And Mr Hill was at the side of the hall, in a black suit, on his laptop.

Everyone was taking selfies.

June and Victoria would not cry.



Our tickets were red.

Today, my tickets were blue.

Decisions :(

I hate decisions. They suck.

How do people know they are sure?

Trick question!

They don't.

7 days

I started and finished reading 7 days. Took me two days.

( I will eventually get round to reading The Hobbit, I promise.)

7 days is an amazing book. It really is.

It is sad. If you do not like descriptions of self harm, then do not read because there is one paragraph.

It is about a girl whose fat who gets bullied by her weight. Also, about the bully, who too is a victim of abuse.

I started of thinking, the bully is such a b**** even though her story was sad.

However, by the end, I was thinking, she too was just as vulnerable as her victim. She too could relate. However, the pain from being bullied manifested into hatred for victims. A sort of why can I not hurt others the way I have been hurt, sort of attitude. Then for the other girl, it was like, why am I a piece of pathetic s***?

I watched a documentary on BBC I player called My baby, psychosis and me.
It was the saddest thing I have ever watched.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b07187xv/my-baby-psychosis-and-me

It was about post partum psychosis. Basically, experiencing psychosis after pregnancy and it is really sad that this happens to people.

It is interesting, because when I was learning about drugs, I thought, well what if it is a bad idea intoxicating people with drugs? Also, with ECT, is it really ethical using a treatment that you do not know how it helps people? I watched the documentary, it's sort of thought provoking, because for the ladies in the documentary, there was no alternative that would work.

Some people are such drama queens. It is ridiculous.

She was like to me, I am making a scene.

So I left her to be by herself.

And I thought, I am not the one making a scene.

I was just trying to figure out why my friend was pissed of at me.

Her getting pissed of at me over a statement

was what made a scene.

Jheze, people these days!

Fanfiction

I am spending so much time on A03.

Fanfiction is so beautiful :)

I don't read smut, mature of explicit...

I still get all like, ewh, at the kissing scenes

I am trying to figure out whether it is a destructive hobby or a worthwhile one.

I lose an hour of sleep every day, reading on my phone.

But it also broadens my vocabulary and inspires me to manipulate words.

And now, whenever I look at words, they are beautiful and all have a purpose.

I was volunteering today and I got to help one of the lady's sort out the food storage.

It was actually quite fun.

She was playing the radio and singing and telling me what to do and letting me take lollypops and telling me stuff.

She is not supposed to work weekends, but because she finds it so worthwhile, she just does. After she finishes working, she goes back to the storage and sorts it out some more. Like, if that is not dedication, I do not know what is.

My oyster card will not work. 

Have to get a new one :( 

Chocolate scrabble

I made a huge mistake today.

I bought chocolate scrabble.

I was like, let us just eat the chocolate.

And then, Tobi was like, nah, let's play.

So we played as a family.

My mum kept eating the chocolate.

Tobi kept complaining about us playing the game wrong.

I stole the chocolate coin in the middle. :P

My youngest complained about the lack of chocolate.

I was like, guys, let us just eat the chocolate after it got hectic.

Tobi stormed off angry at my brother.

So that is what playing a family game is like for the Peppergrinders. :P

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-35459797
I watched this